Making babies amidst climate collapse.

& my commitment to the future.❤️

There’s something about becoming a mom that, to me, is about being committed to the future.

You say, “okay, a lot of our collective projections are bleak… maybe even catastrophic. So who do I have to become to raise my kid in good conscience?”

When Noah was born, one of the first things I thought looking down at his precious face, his brand new glowing eyes, was —

I want to be able to answer him when he looks up at me a decade from now… when the fire or flood reaches us… and asks, “Mom, what did you do to try to prevent this?”

I want a response that’s earnest and committed. That shows I did — am doing — my part.

Better yet, I want to be living in a way where he won’t have to ask. He’ll know. He’ll be part of the magic; his fingernails perpetually dirt-filled, his skin a tad too sun kissed.

There we are, obsessing over food sovereignty, water retention, and relational resilience with our neighbors.

There we are, planting gardens with our whole wild hearts, even if we might have to leave them, dance that love song all over again in Montana, or upstate New York, or wherever.

Because every land needs the love.

There is nowhere that will be untouched.

Smoke has no boarders. Water shortages either. Fire skips across state lines until it kindles the death/rebirth it was going for.

Making babies amidst climate collapse is a commitment to becoming Mother to more than just my own.

It’s a devotion to your children. And their children. And the hope that we survive another 7 generations, healthy & nourished, more peaceful & abundant than ever before.

When Seann proposed to me a few years back, it was just after I’d painted a picture of us, together, devoting our lives to the possibility of clean water on planet earth 500 years in the future.

Nothing makes the future feel more certain than birthing a baby into it.

And nothing has me taking my choices more seriously than realizing in the most fleshy, sweet-breathed way that one day my ancestors — our ancestors — will be living in the wake of our current day commitments.

May there be natural organic nutrient dense food. May there be clean air and fresh water. And may there be soil so rich it smells like heaven.

Wild love. Heaps of trust.
xox,
Rachael

PS – The main practice we’ll be working with at the MAGIC 4X: Entering the Motherverse retreat is finding & working with our soul’s core question.

This is a counter-intuitive way of “manifesting” or doing spell work, but in my experience, a highly effective and non-violent one.

When you think you know what you should get (a baby with a certain person, in a certain amount of time, while living in a certain location, for instance…) your focus on your perceived “answer” or desired outcome can actually stall what Life wants with and for and from you.

But when you focus on a core question, you and Life together rearrange, transform and transmute to bring you into coherence with an emergent answer, rather than a predetermined one.

Right now, 11 weeks postpartum, I’m 100% living questions about what it means to raise a family amidst climate collapse. About where to live. About intergenerational family. And village. And soil. And soul’s work. And Truly Growing Up for far more than self-serving purposes.

Of course, I have visions. But honestly, I need this retreat in Hawai’i. I need to do an oracle walk in that enchanted endemic forest and listen for what Life wants me to hear and then consecrate myself to the question, not the knowing. And from there, let Life reorient me. Slowly. Deeply. Devotionally.

This process, this practice, is the foundation of my spirituality. And how so much good has come to me. Relationships. Works of art. Books. Houses. And yes, babies.

If you want to approach motherhood as a call to awaken your deepest Soul Power, let’s be together.

MAGIC 4X: Entering the Motherverse. 3 months of mystical coven communion. In-person retreat at an off-grid eco sanctuary on the Big Island, Sept 19 - 23rd.

Hit reply if you’re curious, have questions or think you might wanna apply. I’d love to connect and hear why.

Or jump in, read more & apply RIGHT HERE. <3